Since my thoughts are not very organized right now, this is probably going to end up as "mind vomit." My apologies in advance to those of weaker constitution.
As a result of babysitting over the past week and a half, I've discovered once again how much I enjoy the quiet, early morning hours. I haven't seen many of them this summer, but I'm hoping to overhaul my schedule this fall. Fortunately, my classes are going to force me to make some changes anyway. Class starts at 10am MWF and 9:25am TTh, but Ali has an 8am class MWF, so I'm sure I'll be waking up early every day. Strangely enough, I think I actually prefer that. Getting up at the same hour(especially an earlier hour) generally makes me feel better, and it gives me time to work out or work on homework without the distractions that present themselves later in the day. This is all theory so far, though -- I make no promises as to how my REAL schedule is going to fall into place.
My store manager told me last week that it's become a very real possibility again that I could be transferred to a Conway store. She and one of the other store managers would like for me to be able to stay in the company instead of being terminated. (It's a good feeling, being wanted.) :) It all depends on the store manager in Conway, though. If she can make room for me, I'll gladly join her team; if not, I'll trust that God has something else in mind. However, one thing is for sure: I'm going to miss working at the Cabot store. :(
Speaking of work, schedules, and classes...I need to order books for my History of American Diplomacy class and sell the textbook I bought for the Logic class I dropped. Taking three classes that don't directly count for either of my majors was stressing me out, so a few weeks ago, I decided to look through the list of classes once again to see if I missed a possibility. That's when I found the Diplomacy class. I don't know how I missed it before! It counts for my International Studies major, which I definitely need to be working on, since I'm almost done with the requirements for my French major. Anyway, I'm glad to be taking three, instead of two, upper division classes that are worth something. I was feeling the pressure of time running out (even though I know I have some breathing room). It's hard to remind myself to slow down and remember that I don't have to rush through everything.
I have a tendency to obsess about productivity to the point that every minute serves a purpose, which can be both a good and a bad thing. I suppose there's a reason that I'm as driven and ambitious as I am, but I'm trying to learn to strike a balance. I think using time wisely is about moderation, not obsessive achievement. Maybe if I can remember that more often, I can eliminate some of this guilt, stress, and fear over not having done "enough." I'm sure there's a spiritual principle here that I've been forgetting...probably something about trusting God. I think it would be worth some thought and prayer later.
Oh - I've been thinking over the past couple of days about something I heard on the radio. It was just one of those 2 minute devotional spots that air on KLOVE or SpiritFM; I don't remember which station it was, and I don't remember who was talking. Anyway, the guy was challenging listeners to rethink the way they look at each day, and what he said really made sense to me. Instead of waking up every day, staggering under the weight of our emotional, relational, or financial stresses, or just moaning about another Monday, we should look at ourselves as being "one day closer." Today, I am one day closer to Christ, one day closer to healing in a relationship, one day closer to the other side of a financial crunch, one day closer to freedom from a habit, one day closer to spiritual maturity, one day closer seeing Him face to face in heaven. The burden seems so much lighter when I remind myself that today, I really am one day closer.
Anyway, I should see what else needs to be taken care of today. I have some Mexican layered dip to make for Mishal's party tonight, and I need to call the body shop to ask why they haven't called me back about the part I ordered for the car. :P
Grace and peace in Christ. :)
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Grace, you are so entertaining. Keep it up. :)
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