Soldier

I don't believe in anything but myself
I don't believe in anything but myself
But then you opened up a door, you opened up a door
Now I start to believe in something else

But how do I know if I'll make it through?
How do I know? Where's the proof in you?

And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
But it can be won

I sit in the back of a bus watching the world grow old
Watching the world go by all by myself
I took a faith full leap and packed up all my things and
All my love and gave it to somebody else

But how do I know if I'll make it through?
How do I know? Where's the proof in you?

And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
But it can be won, but it can be won
But it can be won, but it can be won

And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won

And so it goes, this soldier knows
(And so it goes)
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
(The war is won)

And so it goes, this soldier knows
(And so it goes)
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
(The war is won)
But it can be won, but it can be won

- "Soldier" by Ingrid Michaelson

I bought more of her music this morning on a whim, and this is the first song on her new album. It grabbed my attention from the very first line.

"I don't believe in anything but myself."

I've been there. It's not a good place to be. I didn't like the inherently self-sufficient start to this song, and I started wondering if the rest of the lyrics would annoy me.

"But then you opened up a door, you opened up a door
Now I start to believe in something else."

It's strange how you can catch glimpses of God in the most secular of songs. I'm sure this song was most likely intended as a kind of love song about a girl and a boy and the fight for love, but it reminds me instead of the love story between me and God. She even asks the questions I ask of Him when I walk through those darker times in life.

"But how do I know if I'll make it through?
How do I know? Where's the proof in you?"

Even the chorus echoes the story of my Christian life, because I know all too well how stubborn my heart can be. But I also know just how steadfast His heart is.

"And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
But it can be won."

Yes, it can be won. It can be won by a leap of faith and a daring surrender.

"I sit in the back of a bus watching the world grow old
Watching the world go by all by myself
I took a faith full leap and packed up all my things and
All my love and gave it to somebody else."

Who knew that a song like this could remind me of so much truth?